I felt like I needed to shuffle up the order of the Into and Beyond the Apocalypse video series, and cut straight to the chase and just open up about the apocalyptic visions I had back in 2015. In this video I am candid about the context in which these visions occured. I was in a bipolar mania at the time they occurred, around 90 days sober from alcohol, and still detoxing off of perscription opoids when it happened (suffice to say my life was messy when this happened). Psychiatriacally speaking, my doctors gave little clarity on the nature of the experience because, as they told me, psychiatry cannot generally distinguish between a delusion and a religious or mystical experience. Suffice to say, after 5 years and much pain and upheval in my personal life, I still do firmly believe that what I experienced in 2015 was from God regardless of the contextual circumstances, and feel like I just need to be open with what I did experience and what I think it may mean.While none of my core Christian beliefs changed as a result of what I encountered in this visionary experience, what I did encounter was a God who was far better than I could ever have allowed myself to imagine. And, yes, I encountered the unfolding of the Christian apocalypse in this experience – yet, it was part of a deeper redemptive work that God was bringing into completion in Christ. It forced me back to the drawing board on a lot of issues that I simply assumed were a given over the past several years.I haven’t opened up on these in any public way, though at least conceptually it informs much of how I wrote The Damned May Enter. Frankly, there is part of me that wishes I did not experience this (and a much deeper part that is very grateful that I did), since this brought so much change and upheval in my life. This vision shattered many of the conservative, evangelical, and Reformed ways I was approaching Christianity, and that will be clear for anyone who checks out my account. But, here I do give my best effort at sharing honestly, and truthfully what my experience was. To some, I do believe this will resonate, and to others it will be viewed either as outrageous or nonsense. But, this aspect of who I am and what I expereinced isn’t going away and I feel that it is time to just be open with it and let the chips fall where they may: