Sketches for a Wasted Youth

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It might be narcissistically indulgent to provide an introduction for my own work, but I ask the reader to bear with me. Usually, I don’t try to offer much commentary on my poetry. However, Sketches for a Wasted Youth represents a certain crossroads for me as a Christian of the mystical persuasion and as an artist. Sketches is by far my longest and most personal work that took me many months to compose. It is my attempt to mine the meaning of memory and to connect some significant life experiences to what I understand to be transcendental truths. Pulitzer Prize-winning poet, Liesel Mueller writes in her poem, Curriculum Vitae, “The death of the mother hurt the daughter into poetry,” noting the intimate connection between the enterprise of poetry and the troubling journey toward understanding. Mueller is my mother in poetry, and her uncanny ability to sublimate anything from pain to the most ordinary objects into beauty has radically shaped my own self-understanding as a poet and as a human. It is this process of sublimation – where the powerful drives of awe, grief, and eros (spiritual and physical, licit and illicit) among others are drawn up from the depths and pulled through the liminal threshold of experience into the external world that has been part and parcel of my own quest for healing and peace through the creative enterprise.

Sketches was composed during an intensely painful period of my life while I was going through a divorce. The best way I can describe the experience of a divorce is that it is like attending your own funeral. During this period, I battled through relapse with alcoholism after four years of sobriety, and poetry more than anything else was a Divine grace that kept me from drowning. Thankfully I have been able to return to recovery during the months I was composing this work and get my head above water. The life I have lived as a manic depressive recovering drunk who also seeks to live out the Christian life in the Divine theater (or in the poem, ‘the Theatre of Theophany’ where we appear in the same broken un-world where God is mysteriously present). These experiences have produced a series of radical contradictions that I needed to probe into and attempt to find within them some reason and meaning. So, this poem details seven sketches of heavily stylized experiences that have had a lasting impact in my life. These Sketches aren’t a mere confession of my failures, losses, brushes with madness, or my unrelenting apocalyptic preoccupations, they are an insistence that my misdirected desires and my more noble aspirations belie a deeper longing for the transcendentals of goodness, beauty, and truth and indeed for God himself.

In these Sketches, I have drawn deeply from the Christian mystical tradition that is rooted in Classical Theism. There are areas where I have unashamedly riffed off of the work of Lord Alfred Tennyson, TS Eliot, WB Yeats, and Dylan Thomas; if I lack in originality in this respect, it is a sin I wholly embrace. There are also echoes of great theologians such as St. Gregory of Nyssa, St. Dionysus the Areopagite, and contemporary giants, Fr. John Behr and David Bentley Hart. The bleeding heart of the work is the apocalyptic event of Calvary as the still point of the moving world, and how my blessed failures have earned so great a Redeemer. Christ subsumes and transcends the world of personal experience and memory and extends toward an eschatological horizon of complete cosmic restoration. It would be unwise for me to interpret this work, so I will refrain from saying much more, other than to express my gratitude for those who are willing to enter into my world in a way that might resonate with them as readers. I will also note that there might be some areas where the reader would benefit from utilizing Google Translate for the portions of the poem that include Latin and (Anglicized) Greek words and phrases. Anyhow, what I have written, I have written honestly and with a heart grasping for God. Inasmuch as I have succeeded in this enterprise, I am grateful for his grace; and inasmuch as I have failed, I cling to his mercy.

Note: Due to the limitations of WordPress formatting I will provide a .pdf copy of Sketches for a Wasted Youth in addition to the full, but improperly formatted text below a brief introduction to the poem.

Sketches for a Wasted Youth



Sketches for a Wasted Youth


stat crux dum volvitur orbis


O felix culpa quae talem et tantum meruit habere redemptorem




The cathedrals of youth

are castles of sand,

empires living forever in memory

long after the tide erases

them from the earth.

As a young man, I spent my life

somewhere between

a brothel and a monastery

searching for the same thing.

There were countless days chasing Vicodin with gin;

in the absence of God, I needed a sense

of divinity coursing within.

I tasted the temptation of the tyranny of ideas.

Speak no more of bangs and whimpers;

This is how this un-world will end –

with someone’s good idea.


So here I stand somewhere between a misspent youth

and the midpoint,

still not succumbed to the decrepitude of age.

The young still sing their sensual song,

and I these wild and wandering cries.

I hear holy Byzantium’s bells calling, but now is not the time to

disembark; age it seems, has not left me

yet tattered enough to leave these shores.

So I linger in this un-world before the unveiling of the world

and the healing of these desires

until at last I find the first,

with mind and bone welded to empyrean fire.


Whatever can be said of that past life,

which bleeds into the present, might best be unsaid.

But, what else is there?

Silence perhaps for the unspoken truth?

Does knowledge begin with the incapacities of speech,

until love makes knowing obsolete?

Whatever can be said of natural passion, it glitters through a

broken glass of the soul’s wounded motions.

Silence hears the silent and

stillness embraces the still.





When I was a boy I traveled with my family on Highway 395

through the Mojave Desert.

Mirages danced across the open road like

broken irrigation lines gushing over a flagstone path

in an unlikely garden.

A garden lined by creosote bushes

and bisected by scorch tortured asphalt.

Off in the panorama, foreground and background grew

from the ground Joshua trees

giving depth of field to the ribbon of road

unspooling like film from a projector wheel.

Those arboreal oddities are less trees

and more old, hairy arms reaching through the sand

clutching several fistfuls of lawn clippings for leaves.

The last time we all traveled that road together

was two decades past.

I’ve been in the wilderness ever since.


Sometimes I still hear that highway’s silent stretches

echoed under every star-scattered sky.

And I say to myself – be still.

Listen now to what you couldn’t hear then:

this un-world leaves none un-ruined.

Divest yourself now of hearing

until you then can hear the music

hymned in the beginning and

reprised in the end.

Divest yourself now of sight

until you then can see the whole world

Divine, shining through the

translucent drapery of this present un-world.

Divest yourself now of touch

until you then hold the hand of every stranger

as the hand of God

and sense is restored by absence.

Remember, the self is a desert flower that

breaks into blossom after years of dormancy

and the severe gratuity of a wet winter in California.

Wait now, it will bloom in a galaxy of selves

shining on the desert floor when

the wilderness remembers it once was a garden.


I hear it said that men should raise their fists against the night.

But that beautiful rage bought them no radiance.

Whatever light they knew, they bequeath to us –

a glittered refraction through the broken glass

shining upon a midnight highway.

I say to my soul,

This is the time for darkness in the desert

Go down into it,

Let it take you up where sense evaporates

Until your vision is the Vacancy of God.

The way up is the way down.

Ascent and descent are the same motion,

your grace, this garden,

this desert of your divestiture.



                                        Discount Theatre


Pyre, Pyre, the empire’s afire on Independence Day,

projected upon the silver screen at the dollar theatre

in the town where I grew up.

A nation fears destruction more than decay,

yet both movements share the same destination.

Was it there or in Sunday School where

I was gripped by apocalypse?

Certainly the cinema evokes a grander sense of vision,

though only a sense of something more deeply sought,

or even taught by a most reverential Reverend.

Can a vision be had by the turning of the projector wheel?

Behold, I looked and I saw spilt soda on the floor

and a flickering light suspended in midair

hovering above an audience

attending a theatre that outlived its prime.

Perhaps the cinema, even a decaying one,

has become the new temple for the shuffling masses,

the citizens of empire who no longer feel transcendence

and now insist it be shown to them.

But now I sound like Augustine caviling against the theatre

lest he be moved by another but God

or live with the agony of unordered love.


Still, I am moved by a story unfolding before my eyes.

These perfect fictions are no more lies

than words themselves.

In this un-world there is only verisimilitude

and lies that point somehow to truth.

There is a sense in nonsense whose labyrinthine

path might at last lead to sense.

I cannot discount, in this un-world, the value of buttered popcorn

or the magical mystery of the movies,

maybe it’s the only light we can bear.


O these precious lies that can only point to the truth

in the Theatre of Theophany.

If God appears at all in in this un-world

it is on a screen tattered and crumpled.

The only images to be seen must be unseen.

The only vision is the interval between

Gethsemane and Golgotha,

the garden and the grave.

This, this is the celestial bloom in the wilderness

this is the desert’s victory rose

this is the apocalypse of Calvary

where the world is at last created.

For all of the ferocity of the cinema’s sound

its truth is but a whisper,

For all the beaming brilliance of the theatre

it glitters through a broken glass,

Until at last the the credits have rolled

and the speakers give no sound

and the flickering lights flicker no more

and the theatre empties

and the empire lays in ruin.

All that is left is a vacant room

filled with the empyrean darkness of God.


Night Club


For the young, Friday night’s rhythm is a raucous thing

when age has not turned time

into a funeral rose.

The mirror ball mimics heaven in a cacophony of sound,

a song shining in the interstellar darkness

hovering over a haze of sweat and gin.

The beat keeps the time that refuses to be kept

tourbillion encased against the grave’s gravity,

but demands to be spent like it is all we have.

In a crowded club on a Friday night

there was only her and I

and the kind eyes that lifted my feet on the floor.


Time is ignorance,

a sensual dance to a sensual song

on a spinning floor in a spinning room.

Beneath the dance there is nothing but unknowing,

hidden in the motion is an abyss of stillness

cradling the frail music with tender silence.

I needed a stranger’s arms gathering me in

to drink her embrace for a moment’s respite

from the desiccated desire of the desert

I carried with me wherever I went.

I wasn’t ready for the silence of God,

so he came to me by her

in the only way I could sense.

Her soft lips were a prayer upon mine

for a transcendence I could touch.

There was the dancing desire pulsating with passion

to find my way beyond sense by sense.

In the dance between us there was a certain sanctity,

it’s the sort of holy the young feel

when time is not a broken bottle pouring

the last drops of youth upon the floor.

It’s hard to say what I thought I was searching for,

in that gin-soaked haze, what can be said,

is that through a broken glass

there glittered a light of something sacred,

and she was an angel of mercy.

I searched for that moment through countless nights,

but never found it or her again.

All we had, I thought, was time,

when all we had was the dance.

All we had, I thought, was each other,

when all we had was our ignorance.

All of the song that yet abides is the silence,

all of the dance, the stillness.


Now, there is still a more riotous dance, a Bacchic revelry,

the light of all within the Enlightening,

the dance of all within the Dancing

the song of all within the Singing.

Time is no longer ignorance,

this procession has been transfigured

by the erotic language of dance closing the

distance of sense and senseless by time beyond time.

Revelation and hiddenness within the manifestation

of the vacant transcendence,

of the prismic immanence,

the spinning song of the mirrored ball

on the spinning floor where the Light is All in all.

This, this is no fleshless dance,

the Mystery disclosed

is in the Body concealed,

and the Dancer and the dancing are one.

Friday night’s radiance glitters through a broken glass,

her kiss a prayer for ecstatic intoxication,

her breath respired to heaven to become breathless.

This, the death that concedes at last to deathless,

where the funeral rose and the victory rose are one,

blooming in the desert garden.

The Song enfolding the silence enfolding the singing

is the Dance enfolding the stillness enfolding the dancing,

from which all motion and repose proceeds and returns

in a syncopated Rhythm that is the Radiance of All in all.


Hometown Church


The church is a theatre all of her own,

a ruined temple forever rebuilding,

playing a feature of sinners and saints –

a dueling plotline woven into a single story.

I grew up in a church that loved that old-time religion

and celebrated the saw-dust trail

trodden by lost souls looking to be found.

We sang old rugged songs about old rugged crosses

and wretches saved by grace.

And I, I was always one prone to wander,

prone to leave the God I love

like a child lost and looking for his mother

at the supermarket in the strip mall miles from home.

It is this story that taught me sin is a sense all of its own:

the smell of burnt ozone from the busted fuse,

the coppery taste of electric heat,

the buzzing sound of the blown speaker,

the crackling shock of the electrode pad stuck to the skin,

the sight of the siren swimming in a sea of fire.

It appeared to me I would ever be in the ashes,

the publican beating his breast,

staring at his shoes

sin sooted and gin-soaked, saying,

‘Lord have mercy on me a sinner.’


So there I was, gin-soaked and guilty

singing those old rugged songs

these wild and wandering cries

on Good Friday with unslakable thirst.

So there I was in the Theatre of Theophany

whose drama unspooled upon an unseen screen

in a ruined temple

that glittered across the ribbon of road

that constrains all time.

So there I was, ruined in an un-world of my own making,

ruined in an un-world that was made before me

singing through my tears

in the tender embrace of Divine Vacancy.

So there I was, when Lenten hunger

was loosening its grip to the power of Spring

where the apocalypse of Calvary

irrupted within the winter of my discontent.


Images of shaded Hades flickered on an invisible screen

where the unseen wears the garb of the seen

drenching my dying eyes with second sight.

Wrapped in the silence of a funeral shawl

my gin-soaked heart awaited a miracle

a resurrected Hand to break open the grave

and bring life to the wilderness within.

Hoc est enim corpus meum

This, this my friend is Me for you

Body and Blood building a bridge

across the fiery waters of the Phlegethon,

a wilderness meal and a surety

of the transfigured desert in empyrean bloom.

The theatre of Theophany plays on in every ruined temple

featuring one title – Anastasis,

and the un-world is subsumed at last by the world.

Friday, that good and holy day must come first

where death is destroyed by death

and the wounded passions by Passion healed.

Then Sunday comes and the stillness becomes the dancing

and the silence becomes the singing

and the sepulcher stone stands shattered forever

and the Vacancy is unveiled forever as Presence

and sense is at last restored.




Mental Hospital


The carboniferous sludge of imprisoned sun darkened by years,

churned and cooked in subterranean hells,

until freed from its earthen clutches,

awaits modern alchemy’s refining wizardry

to concoct incantations for its combustive perfection.

After years in acedia’s grip,

lingering beneath the lithosphere

a spark lit the long-forgotten fuse

and launched me into the star-spun heights

among the spangled spaces of the Milky Way.

How often I have warred with devils

while chthonic cyclones conjure their maledictions

and monsters in my mind

or left me listless and snake bitten by the noonday demon.

How often I have tread water in the tyrannous torrent

of unending ideas, of incandescent ideas

of their treasonous pretense, of their vacuous intoxications

of their masquerading charade, of their maltempered reason.

These un-worlded ideas, their highest ambitions, their wretched insanities

are empire’s sandcastle foundations

and the portents of the un-worlds last ruin.



Yet, the same coin flips

and shows his smiling face,

and the incendiary is transfigured iridescent;

should I also not say what is best left unsaid?

I too have dined with prophets,

tabled with Moses and Elijah

and Isaiah and Jeremiah and Ezekiel,

they are my brothers in holy madness.

I too have been alloyed to their tongues of fire,

singing their dirges and uttering their ecstasies,

trodding the secret place of thunder on Sinai’s mountain

to behold the Darkness of God as Light beyond light.

I too have seen the world in its singular beginning

when the sons and daughters of God first learned to sing.

I too have seen the world in its blessed ending

when the sons and daughters of God will sing again.

I too have seen the cosmic array as Song and Silence

irradiated by Act and elucidated by Repose,

circumscribed and spinning and singing and dancing

around the ever-moving Stillness.


Lettered ladies and medical men stare down their glasses

and nod in perfect incomprehension

while scrawling sibilant psycho-babble on

ignominious notepads, blissful and misinformed

to the truth that sanity is always a precarious fiction.

If there’s sanity at all in the hospital’s halls

it is found in the fact that pills are paltry promises for peace

it is found in the fact that this un-world leaves none un-ruined

it is found alone in our groaning for the unveiling of the world.

If there’s sanity at all in the hospital’s halls,

it is in the truth of our tears,

in our wild and wandering cries

while we cling to the funeral rose

that became our victory at the apocalypse of Calvary.



Madness has always travelled near me –

I’ve been touched by empyrean fire

and scorched by sulphurous pyre

and burned electric in my bones bound,

jarred, jolted by its liminal live-wire.

I’ve been there, drugged out of drugs by better drugs

while taking fellowship among the dregs.

I’ve taken supper with souls who found courage to confess that all

the light we know glitters through a broken glass

shining in the starlight scattered highway

unspooling from the projector wheel across our desert garden.

I’ve sat in circles while we sung our woes

bought by wine and gin and fistfuls of Vicodin,

lamenting the bridges we’ve burned

believing perhaps some bridges might be built again.

May I ever be numbered among the company of the damned;

only the damned can be redeemed

when the destructive pyre at last burns out

and we dance unburned in the brilliance

of Transfiguration’s unrelenting fire.

May I never, never forget that the line

between delusion and inspiration

is a beautiful blur in the un-world’s flux

of sense and nonsense that ever, ever spins

within these wounded passions.

Only when the world appears and the Passion has his way,

arrayed in the panoply of empyrean Love,

showing forth his Physician power

will the passions’ pyre be put to peace.

For now, there is only the waiting in hospital halls.

For now, there is only dispossession and divestiture

in the wilderness garden bisected by the only

road the un-world will remit, veiled by the

darkness and desiccation of the desert.


                                    Humboldt Park


The knifing winds of November

cut the air of an amber lit afternoon in Chicago.

These are the bruising streets of blacktop and broken glass

that breaks boys into men

and makes them into brawlers.

Towers of commerce rise in the East along the Lake,

but on the West Side it’s hard to muster the

courage to look up toward a life

that lies beyond grasping hands.

I hear their voices in the silence,

crying out into the void

for a God that left these streets long ago.


This, this was when the madness of a mad world

touched me for the first time

in the back alleys of Humboldt Park.

I was a bible college kid living in a bubble,

a comfortable enclave in a city

that knows little of comfort.

A gust of wind caught yesterday’s news

and the dead rattle of yesterday’s leaves

in a whirlwind that never leaves these streets

and never yields them a placid moment.

I see their eyes, the vacant gaze of children who

cannot see the past, or the future through the ever present

blur of bullets ripping the afternoon air.

It’s a crushing concession for a suburban kid to concede

that the city leaves none un-ruined,

they’re born without bootstraps

still we insist if they just persist

they can pull themselves from the teeth

of these iron jawed streets.

Their daddies are gangsters,

their mommas turn tricks,

they’ve seen the heart of darkness

that the un-world refuses to see in itself.

Our little bible classes on Saturday afternoon

felt like a bandage on a broken bone.

All that was left for me was to make their voices my own –

a desperate cry into the Vacancy for a Light

that glitters through the broken glass

that litters these city’s bruising streets.


When I embraced a frightened child in a moment of terror

was I not diminished by his tears

or entangled in his fears

so that they become my own?

If he is forever damned,

then so am I because my arms

were an open door to my heart

that I can never, never close.

If he is forever damned

dangling like a spider

over the pyres and horrors

of hell’s hot mouth

then I am bound by love to burn with him.

Hell would be a better place

than the bliss of a heaven

that would make me forget a boy

whose courageous rage bid him to baptize

this un-world with his tears of incomprehension.

If all shall not be well

and any manner of thing be left to ill

then the the funeral rose signifies only failure

and the victory rose cannot flicker transfigured fire.

If all shall not be well

then the Vacancy of God is mere emptiness,

the Darkness of God mere void,

and the sepulcher stone remains unshattered.


Yet I trust,

ex tenebris lux,

            soon, soon a radiant sun shall shine

when the sons and daughters of God sing again.

Yet I trust,

that the apocalypse of Calvary

cannot ever end in failure

or consign even one forever to the void

when the pile of each and all is made complete.

Yet I trust,

when the funeral rose is welded to fire,

empyrean petals for each and all

shall gently fall upon the streets of Humboldt Park

and all shall be well and all manner of thing be well.




Somewhere in the middle of the azure sea

islands, green and brown and black rise

like the backs of primeval turtles

who belched forth beauty

from belly-born fire,

Wrapped by endless horizon

like the possibilities of love,

Filled with birdsong symphonies

at fire-lit dawn and pyre-burned dusk

echoing in salt-sky airs.

How could I have known when I held her hand

on the extruded stone of of a lava cooled cliff

over the sapphire swirled Pacific that in the un-world

love’s fire bends like stone to silence?

Whether by death or dissolution,

the hearts we hold so dear

spin inexorably toward the breathless moment

where there’s nothing left to say.

And all that stood between us,

or ever would long after love’s venture

was indissoluble incomprehension.


Love is a sensual song spinning in our ears,

a defiant dance into the stillness,

an ignorant voice into the void

that the soul can’t help but sing.

If it is a foolish thing, teetering on the edge of a cliff

I sing that song in praise of love’s folly.

If I had known the goodbyes whispered in her eyes,

courage could not have kept my feet fast

in the silence that stood between us.

If I had known the goodbyes whispered in her eyes,

I might not have offered my vow into the vacant sky

not knowing our children danced in her graceful gaze.

In white garb wrapped resplendent

she was a vision of a shining world

peering through the translucent drapery of the un-world.

And there I stood at aisle’s end

before the island plunged into the Pacific

in youth’s blessed ignorance

ready to walk a road we all must

bending always to an abyssal silence.

And there she was, doomed and blessed

to trod the same tracks beside me,

venturing the un-world’s tried and true road

of love that cannot but end in failure.


Yet no failing love is vain, or doomed as it were

to silence or soil heaped over the grave,

it is, as one has said, destined at last in the coming world

to be transfigured according to another pattern.

So give me your pain, I give you my grief

as we bequeath our incomprehension upon each other –

see it glitter upon broken glass strewn about the midnight

highway unspooling from the projector wheel

that spans this island and the dark desiccation of the desert.

So give me your doubt, I give you my fear

and we will fail together,

our alienation is a silent song into the Vacancy of God,

our incomprehension is the funeral rose.

So give me your anger, I give you my hurt,

the song must end in silence,

the spinning dance must spin no more.


The hope of the young must be utterly spent,

there is only so much time

pouring on the floor from that broken bottle,

yet it shall to pour anew in the endless flow

of eternity’s everlasting youth.

Let us balm our broken hearts with this truth,

the Dance awaits in abiding stillness

for now the Song is silence

until the last island crumbles into the sea

only to rise again in an unveiled world.

Love is the funeral rose in this Theatre of Theophany

that must blossom into victory

when Calvary’s apocalypse has rent asunder

and unraveled every thread of the veil

which now stands between us.

Let us wait and walk this desert highway alone together

until this ribbon of road has played its final act

and we join the empyrean company

and with our children, dance forever young.




So here I stand at the midpoint

where the sand of this young empire

is carried away by the waxing sea.

If youth is an alabaster bottle, let me break it in extravagant waste

upon those feet that carried the cross to Calvary

until the truth of these tears are utterly spent.

Speak no longer of brothels or monasteries –

they are shrines to a common longing.

Speak no more of ideas –

their whimpering bangs will bang no longer.

Speak no more of a past that bleeds into the present

or of passions, these too shall pass.

Speak no more of the incapacities of speech –

soon Love will lend its fire to these words.

Speak no more of Vicodin and gin or paltry pills,

the un-world remits no relief.


Linger now, for a little while in these hospital halls

walk now, for a little while upon the midnight highway,

sit now in this ruined temple until the world at last appears,

until the theatre empties and this empire lays in ruin,

and all that lingers is the empyrean Darkness of God.

Cling now to the funeral rose,

it alone is victory

blossoming in the desert garden

where all is well and all manner of thing well.

Sit now with desiccation and desire

until the stillness becomes the dancing

until the silence becomes the singing;

Anastasis has shattered the sepulcher stone.

For now there is only the waiting,

there is only the walking

down the ribbon of road in this un-world,

unspooling until it ends at last.


Silence hears the silent,

stillness embraces the still.


© Jedidiah Paschall






3 thoughts on “Sketches for a Wasted Youth

  1. Hi Jed,

    This sounds like a great cathartic season through this piece. Isn’t that awesome that God knows us and what coping skills fit with our talents and personality. While you heal others can do. That’s the Gospel.

    Let’s meet up soon.


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  2. i remember the snarled face of a young wrestler coming out to meet his opponent on no uncertain terms
    i remember the gumption of a burning testimony that hungers and thirsts for righteousness
    i remember the spiritual wars that wage only on sons of thunder, that so few can rightly judge
    whats better than what i remember is what i forget
    no more painful stories, my words are far too powerful
    no more speaking in terms of reality now but with a creative edge of faith
    because our words produce life or death
    0’the cyclopse eye
    the sirens song
    the winters storm
    the devils wrong
    the golden fleece
    the glistening dew
    the rabbits leg
    the gray jays rue..
    O’for an eye to see
    an ear to hear
    an arm to carry
    a yeast for beer
    a stove that glows
    a creek that flows
    a sky that snows
    a garden that grows
    a mind that knows
    a seed that sows..
    i made several batches of gin which turned out with a very competitive quality and the secret is Angelica purpurea (which stopped the black death in europe) wild foliage brewed into cane and palm sugars then fermented with a nitro yeast until dry. a simple pot still on a atove with a water jacket in a kitchen sink can distill this sacred treat. i used juniper and cedar berries in the pot as well but the angelica gave me something of which no one else has shared the equal.. it is a healing candy, if you will.. thanks for sharing jed, massive read had to come back twice 😂


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  3. Thanks brother. I loved your words as well. A new world awaits us still with clean green swells kissed by offshore winds at Blacks, and after we surf, sandwiches. Hope you’re well!


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