I am not a learned man,
as I sit in this empty room I admit
the diplomas on my wall are
certificates of debt – nothing more;
perhaps if my learning did not come
through an untamed curiosity
and fits of wild distraction
I could speak higher of my higher education.
My library is a study in chaos:
there’s enough poetry to persuade me
some minds are vast as the universe;
there’s enough fiction to convince me
truths are verbs untangled by action
and the self is disclosed in a constellation of selves;
there’s enough science to remind me I’m bad at science;
and there’s enough theology on the shelves
for me to concede that, in the end
the only language for Truth is incarnate,
everything else is negation,
each finite word regresses to an infinite
Word too simple to understand –
the best I can hope for is better incomprehension.
My words are the modest epiphanies
of a middling mind
in an era where everyone writes poetry
and almost nobody reads it
and those who do could do better than
reading my wild scribbles,
these are a series of smoke and mirrors
and cheap parlor tricks,
a retread of ideas better minds have trod
and will tread again;
every word is a precious failure –
that raid upon the inarticulate,
whose best hope is in failing well;
perhaps they are all I have to remind myself
that the void is only a vacant room
waiting to be filled.
© Jedidiah Paschall – February 2, 2019
Wonderfully written!
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Thanks Steven
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